sarine luvs you

2010-03-14T00:09:00.000-08:00

YOU ALL CAN SERIOUSLY SPAM ALL YOU WAN...I DID'NT SAY THAT I WAS PRETTY..IF YOU ALL GOT SO MUCH FREE TIME SPAM ME THEN GO ON LO..YOU ARE ALL ONLY WASTING YOUR TIME..I NOT AFFECTED BY YOUR WORDS,BUT I FEEL THAT YOU ALL VERY CHILDISH..

2010-02-22T04:47:00.000-08:00

MY RELATIONSHIP IS BETWEEN ME AND MY BYFRIEND!!
CARE SO MUCH FOR WHAT??
WANT TO SEE HOW LOVEY DOVEY WE ARE??
GO : dardar214.blogspot.com

2010-01-13T03:13:00.000-08:00

YO PEOPLE!!
I AM CHANGNG MY BLOG!!
I CREATED A NEW BLOG ON MY OWN!!
GO TAG ME OK:D
http://www.blogger.com/her-lifejourney.bs.com

2009-12-28T00:47:00.000-08:00

JOSEPH WANTS TO PATCH ANGELA THEN PIN YANG HEARD THE NEWS!! YONG JUN TOLD ME THAT PIN YANG WAS VERY SAD AND HE WAS LIKE INSANE!! WHY IS IT THAT ANGELA IS THE ONE THAT MAKES HIM INSANE INSTEAD OF ME WHO IS HIS STD?? WHY?? YONG JUN TOLD ME THAT PIN YANG WILL NO LONGER COME DOWN TO ANG MO KIO BECAUSE HE DOES NOT WANT TO FACE ANGELA!! WHY?? WHY IS IT THAT HE HURT ME AGAIN!! I ONLY CAN LOVE HIM SILENTLY...A LOT OF PEOPLE ASK ME IF I AM SURE THAT WE ARE BOYFRIEND AND GIRLFRIEND...LAST TIME I CAN SAY YES IMMEDIATELY BTU NOW ALL I CAN DO IS FAKE A SMILE..AND PRETEND NOT TO KNOW ANYTHING!! SOMETIMES I THINK BEING INNOCENT IS GOOD!! BABY LAOGONG PIN YANG..IF OTHERS ASK YOU IF I AM YOUR GIRLFRIEND THEN WHAT WILL BE YOUR REPLY?? I REALLY WANT TO KNOW....I NEVER ASK YOU TO LOVE ME WHOLEHEARTLY LIKE ALL MY EX...YOU ARE THE ONLY EXCEPTION...I ONLY WANT TO HAVE A PLACE IN YOUR HEART AND THAT YOU WOULD SHOW ME CONCERN AND LOVE...THATS ALL...I DON'T ASK FOR MUCH...BUT WHY IS IT THAT YOU CANNOT GIVE ME WHAT I WANT?? IS IT REALLY THAT DIFFICULT?? I WAS VERY TOUCHED WHEN YOU SAY YOU MISS ME...OTHERS MIGHT THINK I AM CRAZY TO CRY OVER JUST SUCH A SIMPLE MESSAGE BUT IT MEANS A LOT TO ME...A SIMPLE MESSAGE COLUD HAVE KEPT ME HAPPY THE WHOLE DAY....PERHAPS EVEN A WHOLE WEEK...I KNWO THAT YOU ARE IN THE ARMY AND YOU ARE BUSY BUT YOU CAN ALWAYS CALL ME IN THE WEE HOURS!! SINCE I BECOME YOUR GIRLFRIEND...I HAVE A HABIT OF STAYING UP LATE AND WAITIG FOR YOUR CALL OR MESSAGE....BUT WHEN I REALSIE THAT THE MESSAGE WAS NOT YOU...I WILL BE DISAPPOINTED BUT I WILL STILL GET EXCITED AT THE NEXT RECEIVED MESSAGE..I WILL ALWAYS HOPE THAT IT IS YOU!! WE GONE THROUGH A LOT TO BE TOGETHER...I DON'T WANT TO END THIS...BABY...TRY TO BE THE OLD PIN YANG AGAIN OK?? I MISS HIM A LOT...THE OLD PIN YANG NO MATTER HOW BUSY,HE WILL ALWAYS SEND AT LEAST A MESSAGE OR CALL ME...EVEN JUST FOR A MINUTE OR TWO..I AM HAPPY ENOUGH..BECAYSE HE MADE THE EFFORTS...THE OLD PIN YANG WILL ALWAYS TRY TO CLEAR UP THE MISUNDERSTANDING THAT I HAVE OF HIM...HE WILL EXPLAIN UNTIL I BELIEVE HIM...BUT THE NEW PIN YANG DOES NOT MAKE AN EFFORT TO EXPLAIN BUT INSTEAD ASK ME TO THINK IN WHATEVA WAY I WANT...IT HURTS....BABY...WHEN YOU HEAR THAT ANGELA WANTS TO GO PATCH WITH JOSEPH YOUR HEARTS TEARS OPEN RIGHT?? BUT DID YOU EVER CONSIDER ABOUT MY FEELING?? I FEEL HURT THAT YOU LOVE ANGELA SO MUCH THAT YOU FEEL HURT...I ALSO FEEL HURT WHEN I SEE AND HEAR HOW HURT YOU ARE...I FEEL USELESS.....A LOT OF PEOPLE ASK ME TO WAKE UP...BUT DO THEY KNOW HOW ASLEEP I AM??NO THEY DON'YT...BECAUSE THEY ARE NOT ME AND THEY DON'T HAVE THE SAME DREAM AS ME!!! CAN YOU SPARE A THOUGHT FOR ME??? ALTHOUGH I AM A ZOMBIE BUT AT I CAN STILL SENSE AND SEE WHAT IS HAPPENNING!!HAIX...TYR TO UNDERSTAND AND HURT ME LESS OK???

2009-12-27T19:41:00.000-08:00

I DON'T KNOW IF IT IS COINCIDENCE BUT PIN YANG MESSAGE ME RIGHT AFTER THE LAST POST!! HE WROTE(BABY..MISS U...WAT U DOING NOW?) I WAS DAMN TOUCHED THAT I CRIED!! CAN YOU IMAGINE?? THAT WAS ALL I EVER WANTED...A SIMPLE MESSAGE THAT SHOW GREAT LOVE AND CONCERN!! I WAS VERY HAPPY!! BUT I NEED TO COOL MYSELF DOWN SO I REPLIED( HAHA:D I NOW WATCHING TV...THX FOR MESSAGING ME:D I WAS DAMN BORED...) THE HE REPLIED WITH (AIYO BABY....I MISS U A LOT...) I WAS REALLY HAPPY!! I ACTUALLY CRIED!! THEN I REPLIED(U SURE U NVR SEND WRONG PERSON??) THEN HE REPLIED (YA) I REPLIED ( Y SUDDENLY MISS ME??) THE I THINK HE GOT ANGRY AND REPLIED( CANNOT MISS U?? THN NVM...BYE) I CRIED AGAIN...BECAUSE I RUIN THE CHANCE OF BRINGING BACK THE OLD PIN YANG OR BECAUSE OF HE GOODBYE?? WHY AM I SO EASILY INFLUENCE BY HIM?? A SIGLE MESSAGE FROM HIM CAN MAKE ME CRY AND SMILE...BE HAPPY AND SAD IN JUST A SNAP!! I DON'T WANT TO BE LIKE THIS BUT I JUST CANNOT CONTROL MYSELF!! LOVE CANNOT BE FORCED!! I CANNOT FROCE MY SELF TO NOT LOVE HIM AND I ALSO CANNOT FORCE MYSELF TO LOVE ANOTHER GUY!! AM I REALLY THAT DESPERATE?? PERHAPS ALL THESE ARE RETRIBUTION!! B ECAUSE I HAD TOO MANY BOYFRIENDS SO HEAVEN WANTED ME TO GET HURT!! SO I WOULD TREASURE THE GUY!! I HAD A LOT OF RELATIONSHIP AS COMPARED TO A NORMAL YEARS OLD!! ALL MY BOYFRIENDS IN TOTAL USE FINGERS AND TOES ALSO CANNOT COUNT FINISH!! BUT ALL THE RELATIONSHIPS..THE GUY WAS ALWAYS THE ONE WHO GAVE UP ON THE RELATIONSHIP!!I ALWAYS TRY SALVAGING THE RELATIONSHIP BUT IT WAS OF NO USE!!! WHAT IS NO LONGER THERE IS NO LONGER THERE!! SO WHAT IF I MANAGE TO GET HIS BODY BACK?? HE HEART NO LONGER LOVES ME AND I AM LIKE HAVING A ZOMBIE AS A BOYFRIEND!! I DON'T WANT THINGS TO TURN OUT LIKE THAT!! A LOT OF MY FRIENDS ASK ME TO BREAK UP WITH PIN YANG BUT IT IS NOT AS EASY AS YOU ALL SAID IT IS!! I TRIED TO STOP LOVING HIM!! BUT THE MORE I TRY THE MORE I LOVE HIM!! THAT IS THE REASON WE ATCH BACK!! A LOT OF PEOPLE TOLD ME THAT IF A COUPLE BREAK AND PATCH,THEIR FEELINGS WOULD NOT BE AS STRONG FOR EACH OTHER... IS IT TRUE?? CAN I BREAK THAT THEORY WOTH PIN YANG?? I WANT TO TEST IT OUT!! BUT I HOPE THE RESULTS WILL BE POSITIVE...PIN YANG HELP ME WITH THIS MISSION OK?? HELP ME PROVE THAT THE THEORY IS WRONG...

2009-12-26T21:15:00.000-08:00

I AM SICK AND TIRED OF TRYING,CRYING AND EXPLAINING!!
I ASKED PIN YANG IF HE LOVE ME AND HE SAID OF COURSE...WHEN I ASKED HIM WHY HE LOVE ME...HE SAID LOVING ME HAS NO REASON AND HE JUST LOVE ME THATS ALL..I SHOULD BE HAPPY RIGHT?? BUT WHY AM I FEELING SAD?? BECAUSE HE NO LONGER HAS A REASON TO LOVE ME?? DOES LOVING SOMONE NEED A REASON?? I LOVE HIM BECAUSE HE IS NICE TO ME AND HE LOVES ME...HE CAN ASLO PROTECT ME AND GIVE ME A SENSE OF SECURITY!! THAT IS WHY I LOVE HIM!! BUT WHY DOES'NT HE HAS A REASON TO LOVE ME?? DOES THIS MEAN HE IS LOVING ME JUST FOR THE SAKE OF LOVING ME?? I AM LOVING HIM BECAUSE I WANT HIM TO FEEL LOVED AND I WANT TO BE WITH HIM..IT IS JUST A SIMPLE LOVE I AM ASKING FOR!! BUT WHY IS IT THAT IT SEEMS SO FAR NOW!!! I FEEL SO DISTANT FROM HIM!!! I DON'T KNOW WHERE OUR RELATIONSHIP IS HEADING TO!!! I TRIED TALKING TO HIM ABOUT BECAUSE I FEL SO UNSURE!! BUT ALL HE SAYS IS ASK ME NOT TO THINK TOO MUCH!! BUT THE MORE HE SAY LIKE THIS!! THE MORE I THINK ABOUT IT!! I FEEL SO STUFFED UP!! I CAN'T MAKE HIM FEEL HOW I FEEL SO THE ONLY ONE WHO KNOWS WHAT IS THE FEEL IS ME!!! I TRYING TO HARD TO JUST KEEP THIS RELATIONSHIP GOING!! I AM TIRED
OF CRYING...YUP I MAYBE SMILING IN FRONT OF OTHERS BUT DOES ANYONE REALLY REALISE AND KNOWS THAT I AM SILENTLY DYING INSIDE??? I DON'T WANT TO END THIS RELATIONSHIP BUT I AM TIRED ALREADY!! SHOULD'NT GIRLS WHO ARE IN LOVE BE HAPPY AND SMILING ALL THE TIME BECAUSE THEY KNOW IF SOMETHING HAPPEN THERE WILL ALWAYS BE SOMEONE TO HELPTHEM?? BUT WHY DO I FEEL SO HELPLESS NOW?? PIN YANG ARE YOU READING THIS?? I REALLY DON'T KNOW HOW TO SAY TO YOU IN REAL LIFE BUT HERE I CAN REALLY EXPRESS MYSELF!! BABY CAN U UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL??? IF YOU DON'T...AT LEAST TRY TO CAN?? I AM TIRED OF TRYING TO TELL YOU ALL THESE!! SORRY BABY!! PERHAPS I AM BEING UNREASONABLE BY ASKING YOU TO DO ALL THESE...BUT CAN U AT LEAST SHOW CONCERN TO ME?? RATHER THEN JUST SAY (OK),( I DUNNO LA)OR ( UP TO U OK..)...DO YOU KNOW IT HURTS ME?? CAN WE BE LIKE LAST TIME?? IF NOT THE NEW YOU IS LIKE A STRANGER TO ME!!
PROMISE ME TO CHANGE BACK TO THE OLD PIN YANG LAOGONG THAT I USE TO LOVE MADLY OK??

2009-12-24T19:15:00.000-08:00

TODAY IS CHRISTMAS:D MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL MY LOVE ONES:D I LOVE U ALL ._.

A SPECIAL DEDICATION TO ALL MY LOVE ONES:D

TO MY BELOVED CLAS OF 2I IN 2009:
YOU ALL HAVE BEEN WONDERFUL CLASSMATES FOR MY FIRST TWO YEARS IN CEDAR AND YOU ALL WILL NOT BE FORGOTTEN BY ME K:D I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU PEOPLE AND I WILL NEVER FORGET THE HAPPY MEMORIES THAT WE HAD:D NO MATTER WHICH STREAM WE ARE IN NEXT YEAR,WE WILL STILL HAVE THE COMMON MEMORIES OF BEING CEDAR 2I 2009:D MERRY CHRISTMAS:D

TO MY BELOVED CEDAR NETBALL:

THE SECONDARY ONES:D:
THOUGH TO U ALL I MAY BE A WEIRD SENIOR AND SOMEONE WHO IS SPOILING THE FUN RIGHT?? HAHA:D FORGIVE ME OK:D ANYWAY MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU ALL AND HOPE THAT THINGS WOULD BE GREAT FOR U ALL NEXT YEAR:D STUDY HARD WHILE YOU ALL ARE PLAYING HARD:D ANYWAY I HOPE U ALL WILL BE GOD SENIORS TO THE NEW SECONDAY ONES AND KEEP UP THE IMAGE OF CEDAR NET BALL OK:D TAKE CARE AND WITH LOTS OF <3

THE SECONDARY TWOS AND MY BELOVED TEAMMATES:D:
THANK YOU FOR ALL YOUR LAUGHTER THAT YOUB ALL GAVE TO ME:D I AM REALLY HAPPY TO BE THE TEAM:D I AM PROUD TO SAY THAT I AM FROM MY TEAM BECAUSE OF YOU ALL THESE AWESOME TEAM-MATES:D PERHAPS I HAD GIVE YOU ALL LOTS OF TROUBLE BUT I THINK THAT IS WHAT THAT MAKES UP THESE TEAM NOW:D WE ARE MORE UNITED AND BONDED THROUGH THE LAST TWO YEARS AND I REALLY HOPE THIS WILL CARYY ON AND WE WILL BE LIKE PARVEEN THAT BATCH(INSEPERABLE):D MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE:D I LOVE YOU ALL AND STUDY HARD FOR SECONDAY 3 YEARS:D

THE SECONDAY THREES:D:
ALL OF YOU ARE GREAT SENIORS AND THANK YOU FOR GUIDING ME IN MY JUNIOR YERAS IN CEDAR NETBALL:D YOU ALL ARE ROLE MODELS FOR ME!! YOU ALL ARE LIKE SO ENCOURAGING AND MOTIVATING:D GOOD LUCK FOR THE NETBALL MATCHES NEXT YEAR:D MAKE SURE TO KEEP THE CEDAR FLAG FLYING HIGH:D MERRY CHRISTMAS:D

THE SECONDARY FOURS:D:
YOU ALL HAVE BEEN GREQAT LEADERS AND FUNNY SENIORS:D IT CAN BE SAID THAT YOU ALL ARE THE PEOPLE WHO WATCH ME GROW UP!! I THINK THAT MAYBE SOME OF YOU ALL ARE LIKE FAINTING FROM WHAT I SAY:D HAHA:D LOL-.- ANYWAY SALUTE TO THE SENIORS AND HOPE YOU WILL NEVER FORGET US!! SOAR HIGH AND I HOPE TO SEE YOU ALL FLYING HIGH WHEN I NEXT SEE YOU:D

TO THE MAGNIFICENT SECONDARY FOURS OF CEDAR NETBALL IN 2009:D:
I WANED TO LIST DOWN YOUR NAMES ONE BY ONE BUT I AM SCARED THAT SOMEONE WILL BE LEFT OUT SO I FORFEIT THAT IDEA:D
ANYWAY THANK YOU ALL FOR BEING SUCH FUNNY SENIORS AND BRINGING LAUGHTER UNTO OUR LIVES:D I KNW THAT I WAS A NUISANCE AND MAY STILL BE ONE NOW:D BUT I HOPE THAT AT LEAST THE IMAGE IS NOT AS BAD AS LAST YEAR:D
MERRY CHRISTMAS:D

TO ALL MY GANS:D:
MUST HAO HAO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELVES OK:D I GOIGN MIA FOR TEAR:D BUT I WILL TRY TO CONTACT YOU ALL OK:D HAO HAO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELVES:D YOU ALL OLD ENOUGH LIAO:D MERRY CHRISTMAS:D I LOVE YOU ALL LOTS<3

BABY LAOGONG PIN YANG:D:
MERRY CHRISTMAS :D I GOING MIA FOR A YEAR LIAO:(
YOU MUST HAO HAO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELVES OK:D I WAS VERY TOUCHED WHEN YOU SAY YOU WILL WAIT FOR ME WHEN I MIA:D I VERY GAN DONG:D ANYWAY LAOGONG PIN YANG:D I LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHERE I AM OK:D YOU MUST REMEMBER ME AND LOVE ME ALWAYS OK:D REMEMBER OUR PROMISE:D LAOPO SARINE LOVE LAOGONG PIN YANG 1314 3344 184:D REMEMBER HOR:D I LOVE YOU:D

2009-12-22T04:46:00.000-08:00

JUN HAO BECOME MY PAPA:D AND GUESS WHO HE SAY IS MY MAMA?? THE PEOPLE WHO KNOW THE PAIR SHOULD KNOW RIGHT?? HAHA!! JUN HAO PAPA TODAY WAS LIKE SO HAPPY THAT HE GOT PAID WHILE SLACKING AT WORK!! THE BOOKSHOP AUNTIE ALSO SAY HE VERY CUTE LO!! HAHA:D I AM NOT SURE IF HE IS CUTE BUT HE IS VERY FUNNY AND KEEP ENTERTAIN US!! BUT JUN HAO PAPA U MUST BE SMARTER ABIT!! DO NIOT THINK THAT U MY PAPA THEN JIU CAN SLACK AT WORK HOR!! I WILL DEDUCT YOUR PAY DE!! HAHA:D I AM A VERY EVIL BOSS!! ANWAY I CANNOT UPLOAD THE PICTURES WE TOOK TODAY LO!! HIOPE LIXIN WILL POST IT!! SO HAPPY DE!! HOPE TO FASTER SEE HER POST!! HAHA!! CANNOT POST TOO MUCH LIAO BECAUSE TOMORROW GOT WORK WITH YAN HUI,LIXIN AND PAPA!! SO AS THE BOSS I CANNOT BE LATE LO!! HAHA:D ANYWAY PAPA CAN U PLEASE EXPAIN TO ME THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN LION DANCE AND SINTUAN?? THANK YOU:D
LASTLY!! TO ALL MY LOVE ONES: CHRISTMAS COMING SOON:D MUST TAKE CARE OF YOURSELVES AND DO NOT FALL SICK:D ALTHOUGH I CANNOT GIVE EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU A PRESENT BUT I GOT A SURPRISE IN STALL FOR YOU ALL:D KEEP WATCH:D LOOK OUT FOR YOUR FOOTSTEPS!! I LOVE YOU ALL:D 3 MORE DAYS TO CHRISTMAS:D<3>

2009-12-22T04:17:00.000-08:00

I DUNNO IF ME AND PIN YANG IS CONSIDERED PATCH OR NOT PATCH LO!! TOMORROW HE WILL TELL ME FACE TO FACE:)FINALLY THE TIME TO MAKE THE DECISION IS HERE!! I THINK THAT SOMEHOW MY BLOG GOT PEOPLE WHO ARE JEALOUS THAT I AM ABLE TO LOVE A GUY!! JUST WANT TO TELL THE SPAMMER THAT TO EXPERIENCE ALL THESE IN A RELATIONSHIP!! I THINK U WILL BE SMART ENUGH TO DO THAT!! PEOPLE HERE IS AN ADVICE FOR THOSE WHOSE BLOGS ARE BEING SPAMMED:
1)DO NOT GET AFFECTED BY THEIR COMMENTS!!
2)DO NOT SCOLD THEM BACK(BECAUSE IT IS A WASTE OF TIME)
3)DO NOT SPEND TIME FINDING OUT WHO THEY ARE UNLESS THEIR REALLY CREATES LOTS OF SRIOUS PROBLEM LIKE RACIST COMMENTS ETC..
4)DO NOT BROAD OVER THE MATTER BECAUSE THEY ARE NOT YOU SO THEY WILL NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT U SAY TO THEM AS THEY ARE JUST CHILDISH PEOPLE WHO LIKE TO WASTE TIME SPAMMING OTHER PEOPLE!!
LASTLY) JUST BE CONFIDENT OF WHO YOU ARE AND CONTINUE WITH YOUR FANTASTIC POST!!!
WONDERFUL ADVICES FROM:SARINE CHENG SI MIN!!

2009-12-21T04:20:00.000-08:00

TOMORROW IS PIN YANG AND ME ONE MONTH!! TODAY HE SAY HE WANT TO PATCH BACK!! SHOULD I?? OR SHOULD I NOT?? I STILL LOVE HIM A LOT!!<3 I REALLY CONFUSE!! TODAY I WAS VERY PISSED!! I WAS BEING SHOOT WITH VULGARITIES!! DID I SPEEL IT CORRECTLY?? CORRECT ME IN MY TAGGED BOARD IF I AM WRONG:D THANKS!! ANYWAY I WAS LIKE SUPER ANGRY TODAY!! I HAD BEEN TRYING TO NOT SCOLD VULGARITIES AND LEARN TO CONTROL MY ANGER!! BUT I JUST LOST IT TODAY!! I TOTALLY LOST IT!! I WAS DISAPPOINTTED IN MYSELF!! I JUST COULD NOT HELP IT BUT SHOOT BACK AT THE PERSON WHO SCOLDED ME!! I ALMOST GET INTO A FIGHT ON THE SPOT!! MY WHOLE BODY WAS LIKE SHAKING FROM MY HEAD TO MY TOES AND IT WAS NOT A GOOD SIGN BECAUSE I HAD NEVER GET SO AGITATED FOR SO LONG!! THE LAST TIME I GOT SO AGITATED WAS LIKE SO MANY YEARS AGO BECAUSE MY BROTHER WAS BEATEN BY A GROUP OF HIS FRIENDS!! I GOT SO AGITATED AND SLAPPED ONE OF THE BOY!!! I WAS DAMN RECKLESS!! IF I HAD GOTTEN INTO ANOTHER FIGHT OTDAY!! I THINK I WILL BE IN DEEP SHIT!! HAIX!! I WAS QUITE SAD THAT I COOULD NOT GO FOR AMANDA'S CHALET!! IT WAS ALL BECAUSE OF MY WORK!! BUT I WAS VERY HAPPY THAT MY TEAM MATES HAD INVITED ME TO JOIN THEM!! U KNOW THE FEELING OF BEING ACCEPTED?? IT IS LIKE DAMN WONDERFUL!! AND U WILL TOTALLY FEEL LIKE U ARE BEING LOVED!! ANYWAY PEOPLE PLEASE FORGIVE ME FOR MY IMPROPER USE OF ENGLISH!! I AM NOT VERY GOOD WITH MY WORDS!!!HAHA:D

2009-12-18T22:58:00.000-08:00

TODAY I ONCE AGAIN GOT HURT BY PIN YANG!!! HE WANTS TO DATE ANOTHER GIRL FRM MY GROUP OF FRENS!!I HEARD THIS FROM ANOTHER PERSON IN OUR GROUP!! THEN WHEN I CALL HIM TO CLARIFY..GUESS WAT HE SAY?? HE SAY HE DON'T KNOW AND MAYBE HE WILL BE DOING IT!!MY HEART SHATTERED INTO PIECES AND MY TEARS STARTED FLOWING!!! I WAS REALLY HURT!! I TRIED FAKING A SMILE SO MY FRENS WON'T BE WORRIED ABOUT ME!! BUT INSIDE I WAS DYING SILENTLY!!! I AM GEETING SICK OF OF CRYING,SICK OF TRYING.... YEAH PEOPLE I SMILING BUT INSIDE I AM DYING!!! LITRES OF BLOOD FLOW AWAY FROM MY HEART...WILL I BE ABLE TO SURVIVE LONGER?? THAT IS A STANDARD LITRES OF BLOOD IN A HUMAN BUT PERHAPS FALLING IN LOVE WITH PIN YANG HAD TURNED ME INTO A ZOMBIE..A ZOMBIE WHO IS DYING AGAIN AND AGAIN....BUT JUST SEEMS TO BE LIVING AGAIN AND AGAIN!!! PIN YANG ALWAYS GIVE ME FALSE HOPE AND I DON'T KNOW WHY BUT I JUST KEEP BELIEVING IN HIM...AND IN THE END I JUST GET HURT AGAIN AND AGAIN...I GIVE HIM MY HEART BUT HE KEEP BREAK IT...I REALLY NOT SURE WHETHER CAN I WITHSTAND MORE OF IT..I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHEN I WILL BREAK DOWN AND JUST STOP LOVING HIM!! I AM REALL Y SCARED THAT THAT DAY WILL COME...I WON'T BE ABLE TO ACCCEPT THE TRUTH...I KNOW THAT I AM FOOLISH BUT I JUST CANNOT HELP IT!! LOVE MAKES A SANE PERSON GO INSANE!!!

2009-12-17T00:49:00.000-08:00

I AM LIKE TRYING SO HARD TO FORGET PIN YANG! I AM LIKE SO SAD AND HURT! HE HURT ME BEHIND MY BACK AND THAT HURTS ME MORE:( HAIX:( FORGETTING HIM IS REALLY HARD:( BUT I MUST TRY TO FORGET HIM SO I WNT GET HURT:( I WANNA SMILE AND BE HAPPY:)BUT IT IS REALLY HARD! ALOT OF PEOPLE HAS BEEN TRYING TO GET ME TO FORGET HIM BUT IT IS VERY HARD! I AM TRYING TO AND HOPE I WILL BE ABLE TO DO THAT:) BECAUSE I WANNA STOP CRYING AND SMILE AGAIN:)

2009-12-16T02:56:00.000-08:00

I REALLY MISS PIN YANG ALOT!!!!! I AM LIKE LIVING IN A WORLD WITH NO AIR!!!! I REALLY DUNNO WAT IS UP WIF ME!!! SERIOUSLY RIGHT!! I SHOULD NOT BE THINKING ABOUT ALL THIS RELATIONSHIP STUFF NOW...BUT I JUST HELP IT BUT GET MYSELF BLINDLY IN LOVE WITH PIN YANG!!!! IN FRONT OF ME HE SAY HE WILL LOVE ME STILL AND WILL PATCH WITH ME AFTER EVRYTHING IS OVER...BUT IN FRONT OF THE OTHERS!!!!!!! HE IS LIKE AVOIDING ME AND TELLING OTHERS THAT HE DOES'NT WANT TO TALK TO ME.... I AM VERY DEPRESSED...AFTER GOING THROUGH SO MANY RELATIONSHIP!!!!I REALISE SOMETHING IN COMMON!!!!!!!THE MORE U LOVE THE MORE U GET HURT!!!IT IS THE TRUTH!!DUN BELIEVE TRY IT!!!!!!! I KNOW PERHAPS ALOT OF PEOPLE WILL THINK THAT I AM A FLIRT SO I DESERVE ALL THESE NOW BUT TRUST ME....IF IT IS MEANT TO BE A RETRIBUTION THEN WHY DID THEY GIVE ME A CHOICE TO CHOOSE TO GET HURT OR NOT GET HURT?? OIT REALLY MAKES NO SENSE AT ALL...HAIX....WENT TO CLASS BLOG...WAS KINDA HAPPY THAT ALL MY FRENS ARE GETTING ON WELL!!!!!!AT LEAST LIKE THAT I WNT HAVE SO MUCH TO WORRY ABOUT ANYMORE...I KNOW THAT ALL OF MY LOVE ONES ARE GREAT PEOPLE SO I KNOW GOD WILL LOOK AFTER THEM NO MATTER WAT:D TO ME NOW,NOTHING MEANS MORE THEN SEEING MY LOVE ONES SMILING AND LIVING LIFE TO THE FULLEST:D SORRY MY LOVE ONES:D I WANT TO FUFIL MY JOB OF LOVING U ALL BUT PERHAPS I AM NOT IN THE POSITION TO!!! SOMEONE WHO DOES'NT LOVE AND TREASURE THEMSELVES WILL NOT BE ABLE TO LOOK OTHERS AND TREASURE OTHERS:D FORGIVE ME FOR BEING STUBBORN ON THIS:D DUN WORRY:D I AM NOT GOING TO DO FOOLISH STUFFS:D I WILL JUST AWAIT SILENTLY AND WAIT FOR THE TIME THAT I CAN FUFIL MY DUTY THAT GOD HAS GIVEN ME:D BUT FOR THE TIME BEING:D PLA TAKE CARE OF YOURSELVES:D I LOVE U ALL:D

2009-12-16T01:35:00.000-08:00

this is th photos of me after pin yang break wif me:( i was like damn depressed lo...haix:( now all is too late liao:( must wait until his brother case over:( but i will be waiting:( my promise to him:)....dunno if its is worth it but at least i trying to:) if i put in effort but in the end still get nothing in return then at least i tried:)

ME and pin yang game over liao:( i really sad that he had to leave me:(...... alot of things cannot be expected de:( perhaps now its the time for me and him to think through wisely:( i really dunno wat to say:( its like i am being awaken from a dream.... haix:( hope that no matter wat happens to me or between me and pin yang:) all my love ones will be happy and blessed:D i love u all:D

2009-12-15T05:21:00.000-08:00

FROM TODAY ONWARDS,i must smile and wait for him to come back:)

chalet

2009-12-09T22:28:00.000-08:00

fareweel chalet for sec 4s
OMG:D The farewell was like boomz:D but now some of us are like suffering frm after chalet withdrawal syndrome de lo:D haha:D we play alot of silly games lo:D and though some of the games sound easy:D i got damn stressed up just trying to figure some out lo:D haha:D everyone was like asking me not to get so stressed up:D haha:D crap:D i thinking about the chalet again:D haha:D I was like running around the chalet to find signal to call my GANS and BAOBEI PIN YANG:D haha and i miss my GANS lo:D like LIXIN,DE XIONG,EUNICE,YONG JUN and MY BAOBEI PIN YANG LAOGONG:D

I LOVE ALL MY FRENS,SENIORS,GANS AND MY BAOBEI LAOGONG PIN YANG<3>

2009-12-07T02:53:00.000-08:00
GREAT:D MY NEW BLOG WORXXX:P
yeah my new blog worxx:P
so happy de lorxx:P
really happy that i hav a blog again u know??:D
some more so pretty de(DONE MY AHXIN JIE):D
damn gan dong de:D
must carry on blogging worx:D if not AH XIN'S jie effort will go to waste le worxx:D
will try my very best to keep this blog alive de worxxx:) smile:D
I WANNA LAST LONG WITH MY BABY:D BAOBEI PIN YANG LAOGONG:D ILY:D
MUACKIES:D LASTLY THX AGAIN JIE:) SMILE YO:D

HIHI [:

2009-12-06T23:56:00.000-08:00
LIXIN HERE .
done w your blog liao , HAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAH.
must thank me manyzx man :D
LOL .
baibais ^^ , im first to tag & first to post, wthzx.
bais :D